Legacy vs. Purpose

Lately I've been thinking a lot about why I even started this blog. And why I chose to format it this way. I could've devoted my blog entirely to food and recipes. i could've devoted it to my love of reading and updated followers on the latest books. Why did I choose to have the blog embody all of me instead of one special part?

Well, I guess that's because I still don't quite know who I am. I had hoped (and still do) that this site would allow me to explore those different facets of my personality and get to know myself better. I take comfort in the anonymity of the site and, at least for now, have no interest in sharing it with people I know. I'm not a master chef, a captivating photographer, an eloquent writer, or great adventurer. I am, in most things, quite average. What sets me apart, I think, is my enthusiasm and love of these things. I love things completely and unironically and without shame. I hope, through this site, to explore these things and others. To find an avenue through which I can impact the world.

Recently I realized that I do not fear oblivion. It does not worry me that I might not be remembered. I wont have a statue or a park named in my honor. What I truly fear is not legacy, it is purpose. Something meaningful with which to fill my days. Knowing that, in some way, I have made the world a better place by being in it, regardless of whether I am remembered for that.

Given the choice between a world where a few good people are making big differences and a world filled with nameless, faceless people helping each other, I would choose the latter. It's simply more sustainable.

#nerd #thoughts